Forgotten Memory

I’ve never been so angry before
not even on my top TEEN years
I feel no love for you now
I brought your lies to the light
now I see them so clear.
Makes me sick knowing you called me honey,
and said I’m everything you hold deal.
I am mad at you,
and I don’t love you, you hear?
I could beat both of you,
right there or here.

I hate your lie
of you wanting to be with me forever.
Why would you say that
if breaking up with me is like ‘Whatever’.
Damn Selfish girl
whom no one knows if is a friend or foe,
maybe that old lady was right
the time she called you a slut dirty hoe.
I should have paid attention to the clues
so I don’t get hurt like that.
Now I regret accepting that invite
the first time you asked me to chat,
but I thought it was worth it
I didn’t mind giving it a shot
who would have known
you didn’t know what you’ve got.
Trying to fool and play me
till the moment you got caught.
There is nothing I can do
is too late for anything now
you are that one memory
Which I already forgot



©2019 Jahaziel E. Magana

Feliz a Tu Lado

Los años que he pasado a tu lado
son la definición de felicidad.
Solo puedo ser feliz a tu lado
mi amada, mi otra mitad,
eres la luz que brilla
Y le da luz a esta ciudad.
Amor puro, amor de verdad
quiero tenerte en mis brazos
por toda la eternidad.

De tus ojos, tomo una mirada
para hacerme sonreír.
De tus labios un beso
para hacerme vivir.
De tus manos una caricia,
y por ti, mi corazón latir.
Quiero amanecer en tus brazos
y a tu lado irme a dormir.
Te amo, por verte sonreír
y a los niños, nunca quiero morir.

©2018 Jahaziel E. Magana

Movie Premiere Coverage

Last night, I got the opportunity to cover a red carpet for Joey Travolta’s new movie premiere  Inside The Filmmaker’s Studio. Stockton got together at the Bob Hope Theater to share the experience with Joey’s Inclusion Film actors and producers as well as the Lodi’s School District and Junior League of San Joaquin County. The evening was full of energy and excitement, I had a blast being part of the photography team covering the event.

Dancing Horses

One of the things I Enjoy the most about being a wedding photographer is having the opportunity to learn new things. Although, I had seen horses dance before in several occasions, I never noticed they sweat and how they sweat, seeing the video of the horses dancing while I was covering a wedding made me discover that. For those who like horses and specially when they perform dancing, hope you enjoy the video.

Broken (Verse Challenge)

Jahaziel’s Verse

In life I’ve thought there are two views of life
like there are two sides to every token,
You will meet love that last forever
and Love that will leave you broken.

Which one was she? I wasn’t able to tell,
I saw paradise with her kisses
when they stopped, I saw hell.
I prayed and cried with my every cell
that this one time, I can do the perfect Spell.

I once thought I could sell my soul for fame,
I once thought love was all the same.
I once thought life is all but a game
then I met her, and put my thoughts to shame.
She, my goddess, beauty is the meaning of her name.

Ken’s Verse (Ken’s Twitter)

I think I must’ve been sitting through 
a hollow pool,
a mistaken Fortune,
an average fool.
I think I once thought I knew
of what to do
the desire of many
but a relation to few.
I think I am fixable with glue
a simple tool,
a broken glass vessel
without purpose or clue.

Dealing with Fear

Have you ever held back or didn’t do something you wanted because of fear?

As I keep getting older and the more I’ve talked to people it seems we tend to regret many things in our life that we avoided doing because of fear.  From going to a place, talking to someone, learning something new. It’s true that fear can keep us from harm at times, but most of the time now a days it only keeps us from becoming who we want.

After a few years wanting to skydive I finally got the courage to do it, but for couple reasons. First one; just to have that experience. Second: to prove to myself that I can do it, and lastly because there’s something in my chest that feels empty and I wanted to try and fill it with anything. I went in just expecting some adrenaline, but came up with one of a kind life experience. If you have felt the anxiety before a test, speaking, or performing for group of people. You might also be able to recognize that anxiety usually fades off and disappears when you’re doing your thing. Which means there was nothing to worry about on the first place. Our own brain and memories infuse this fear to try to keep us from experiencing some mild moment of embarrassment we might have felt at some point in our life. Isn’t making mistakes proof that you’re trying? so, if there are mistakes… what of it? they are nothing but experiences you got to learn from and grew from. Fear is not real is what I came into the conclusion after today. One needs to just do what we must without worrying about the what Ifs, because most of those what if will never see the light of day and we ruin the experiences worrying about something that will never happen.  Wouldn’t you rather enjoy the moment?

After jumping I realized all that anxiety and fear were there for nothing, as well as having the enlightened experience that we shouldn’t focus so much on getting or staying in a specific place, the world is so big and we should go out there and get to know what it has to offer, don’t be afraid. It’s always better to say “I did that”, than ‘I wish I had done it’.

Blessings 🙂



The Importance of Quality

I’ve been digging thru some of my old files and came across some videos from a wedding I had the opportunity to cover. At the time I had my cousin Ken living in our house, back when him and I would write verses together and spend our time talking about music, life and the Illuminati. I had offered him to be my assistance and then we could go take pictures together also. At the time I only had my main and backup camera, so I couldn’t hand him one of my camera since I would use both so I don’t have to change lenses, I would just switch cameras. The best idea we came up with was for him to grab my Canon camcorder which I threw away years ago already because the video quality was horrible and would take so long to focus and would lose focus pretty easily. So I ask Ken to come with me, he can just record me working and then we can talk about how or why I do things. It didn’t occurred to me to spend a few minutes teaching him the basics of videography 🙁

After looking at the hole day event this is the best pieces of the footage I can put together. So it serves as a reminder than you not only need to have experience and know what you’re doing, but you have to have some decent equipment. One can only get better by practicing, and your level of practice must match your level of gear. We all have to start at some point, and I’ve even gone back 12 years to when I first became interested in photography, the comparison of the quality of pictures is pretty incredible. I wouldn’t hire that guy, lol. Now a days is a different story and I feel pretty confident to be able to manage anything that comes my way.

The mistakes we make in life are but lessons for us to become better. Go out to the world and learn many lessons 🙂



Ducati

About a year ago, I had the chance to borrow this awesome bike and take it for a spin, I never really did anything with the footage, so I figured now that I have a lot of free time I use it to work on improving some of my editing skills. The bike is a red Ducati Evo 848, the gear I borrowed along with the bike came with a Gopro Hero 5 on top of the helmet which is what captured the trip around my town; Watsonville, and its surrounding beaches and back-roads. The song was playing on the background when I brought back the footage to look at it, and I said to myself how I missed that and I wanted to experience something like that again, so the lyrics and the song came together pretty nicely. So, in memory of one of the great days of my life… 🙂

 

 



Artista

Artista Book cover

Después de mucho tiempo de no escribir en Español, al fin pude conseguir no solamente la inspiración pero el tiempo y la energía para poner unos poemas juntos y publicar mi primer antología. Muchos de los poemas hablan más de temas sociales que personales, pero el tema de amor está presente y domina creo yo en los poemas. El poema con que empiezo la antología es un poema de amor con titulo Perla. El cual escribí después de mi paseo a México el año pasado y realizar que la imagen del amor y la mujer que construí en mi juventud si existe y es algo y alguien a quien puedo tener en mi vida si en verdad lo deseo.

 

Perla

 

En tus ojos veo ternura, veo una Perla
Tu corazón un diamante
Con un brillo mágico
La luz de mi vida
La razón de mi ser.
Tu aroma a Jazmín
Es tu aroma de mujer.
Tu voz una melodía angelical
Que me hace enloquecer
Tu pelo, tu figura y sonrisa
Hacen que te vea y sueñe por doquier
Cada día que no te tengo
Es una tormenta que no para de llover
Y cuento los minutos
Para volverte a ver

Reminiscing

I happened to be cleaning some of the drives I have and got myself looking at some old footage when I was doing some photo sessions and then as I had my music going the song Days go by started playing, and then I just had to do a video, it just felt right. With a big smile on my face as I was reminiscing those days and then getting myself to compare the mentality, the style, everything about my artistic self and persona from then and now. It’s always nice getting the opportunity to see how much you have grown or changed.

Thinking back on those days I think I might have been a bit more egotistic and thought I knew everything about photography, 5 years later I now feel there is so much more I could learn and so many things I still have left to experience and do, Photography is one of those paths that never ends and always leads you to something better.